Random Thoughts

I am ready.Pretty much ready to face the world. To break the protective shell , which my parents, family created and protected me for the last 21 years. I am moving to Bangalore for work.I do not think I am going to return any soon.

I belong to this city of destiny where most of my mornings are calm and pleasant.My day starts without any hurry.The calm and cool attitude is carried. I was born ,studied, pursued under graduation here.I relate to it so much.But, today is just not like every other day.From tomorrow everything is going to change.I have to take care of myself .Run for food.Work for money.

Today for the first time ever, I thought why should I ever work.My dad earns good enough that he can satisfy all my needs for life.If I do not work today also nothing will change in my life.My luxuries and comforts will be there.Then , why work? Right from my childhood , I was taught to that every human is born to achieve . To achieve something or the other.Trained in a way that cannot make them sit idle.We are taught to experiment on stuff.

Its been a month I finished my graduation.Not a single day passed without thinking what I would do next.I have every option .I got a job offer, pretty good GRE and TOEFL scores.A decent CAT score which motivates me to take it again so that I can crack it. But the point is, I am unable to decide.I am unable to decide what I want in life.I want money,degree but I do not know will these give me happiness ten years down the lane.What is that I want ,to just say that THIS IS IT,I DO NOT want ANYMORE.I do not know.

This is eating me up from inside.When I was in my pre-final year of UG,I remember one of my senior friends often telling my the age of 21-22 is the most difficult phase.Every day you have so much to think about .One wrong decision would turn our lives up-side down.

In this busy world of entrepreneurs,engineers,doctors, artists and most successful people I feel lost somewhere.

I hope I would feel better from tomorrow,since I would start working,stop sitting idle with random thoughts flickering in my mind.