My obsession for IIT/IIMs !

Right after finishing my grade 8, I decided I would go ahead and take up the coaching for IIT .I always aspired to be an engineer from one of those premier institutes.Alas , I had not taken my work very seriously .I flunked the IIT-JEE exam and could not make it into any of those grand institutes.I have joined a local university.Took up IT as a major and graduated with a good GPA.

But all through these years, my obsession for being a part of those flamboyant institutes did not decrease rather started increasing.Upto that extent ,at a certain point of time I almost decided I would marry an IIT or an IIM alumnus.Its like I have done a research in which I think I can differentiate IIT/IIM grads from the normal population.The way they think,the shrewdness they expect and the less amount of time they want to invest on trivial issues.Well, I think they are trained that way ,which is something I really like.And, I think this must be the reason that MNC's offer them such huge packages.

And , if I have to comment about them turning entrepreneurs,they work too hard for their baby i.e their venture.Especially, after working under an IIT turned entrepreneur I realize that the committed attitude they have towards their baby is pretty impressive.They just do not take anything for granted.This includes employees also.May be this is why people advise us to work with smaller firms to gain experience in the beginning.

People keep asking me why am I working for such a start up ,when I can have a great vacation and then join the MNC which has given me an offer letter.Some random relatives keep boasting about their kids working in redundant firms.And I just simply smile.As,I am well aware of the fact that an average package would not give me the experience of working with a group of IIT's and exchange  my ideas.This constant process of upgrading myself  through observation would definitely go missing.I keep admiring my boss while the other employees talk about how strict he is.They get pissed off when I say he is absolutely correct on his part because he is a businessman and not our relative to keep cajoling.

Tomorrow I may or may not end up being an entrepreneur or a student from premier B-school but this obsession for the top institutes will always be on.

Random Thoughts

I am ready.Pretty much ready to face the world. To break the protective shell , which my parents, family created and protected me for the last 21 years. I am moving to Bangalore for work.I do not think I am going to return any soon.

I belong to this city of destiny where most of my mornings are calm and pleasant.My day starts without any hurry.The calm and cool attitude is carried. I was born ,studied, pursued under graduation here.I relate to it so much.But, today is just not like every other day.From tomorrow everything is going to change.I have to take care of myself .Run for food.Work for money.

Today for the first time ever, I thought why should I ever work.My dad earns good enough that he can satisfy all my needs for life.If I do not work today also nothing will change in my life.My luxuries and comforts will be there.Then , why work? Right from my childhood , I was taught to that every human is born to achieve . To achieve something or the other.Trained in a way that cannot make them sit idle.We are taught to experiment on stuff.

Its been a month I finished my graduation.Not a single day passed without thinking what I would do next.I have every option .I got a job offer, pretty good GRE and TOEFL scores.A decent CAT score which motivates me to take it again so that I can crack it. But the point is, I am unable to decide.I am unable to decide what I want in life.I want money,degree but I do not know will these give me happiness ten years down the lane.What is that I want ,to just say that THIS IS IT,I DO NOT want ANYMORE.I do not know.

This is eating me up from inside.When I was in my pre-final year of UG,I remember one of my senior friends often telling my the age of 21-22 is the most difficult phase.Every day you have so much to think about .One wrong decision would turn our lives up-side down.

In this busy world of entrepreneurs,engineers,doctors, artists and most successful people I feel lost somewhere.

I hope I would feel better from tomorrow,since I would start working,stop sitting idle with random thoughts flickering in my mind.